Unanswered questions

I have been pondering so much on the different feelings that one feels.

How is it that doing good to others always feels good and hurting even a tiny bug makes one feel terrible inside? Does everyone feel that?

You see some good thing happening to someone. Does that make you feel happy for them or jealous/half-hearted?

You see someone hurt/sad/upset/behaving badly. Do you feel sorry for them or happy that they are suffering?

Sometimes actions speak louder than words and expressions say more than what one wants to.

Often times, people are very good at acting and can hide the feelings behind their external facade, they can put up a good show, whereas others display it all despite of trying hard to hide it.

The Great one sitting within us watches everything, witnesses all. Nothing is hidden from that entity. Are you being true to that self? Does one ever think about that person? Does one make a conversation with that person? If so, what would that conversation be like? Would it be a chat like one'd have with a good friend over a coffee or a fight one has with a sibling?

Is it only a hurtful action that's considered bad or a hurtful thought also causes the same damage? Or maybe even more? To self or to the other person? Or both?

I sometimes wonder.

Building tolerance when needed

When new year starts, mind feels quite busy often as it is a time to look back and summarize the experiences and ponder on what all has been learned in the past year with all experiences.

Best moments are the ones where you connect with loved ones to talk about philosophical things and realities of life, despite of them being not so pleasant, when we experience positive things. Down moments are the ones filled with disappointments; disappointments because of unpleasant experiences, because of unpleasant interactions, unpleasant people. Sometimes it makes me wonder if the expectations are contributor for that. May be so. Regardless, these sour experiences or moments have started to become lessons-learned than disappointments. Only gradually though. Thanks to loved ones for sending tons of reminders. One of the positive things that has barely started is the transformation to start listening to positive things, see more positive things, or rather see the negatives as positives. HP often reminds me of these things. Hope I can listen to more of BK speeches. Here's one of them that has come to rescue on time recently. What an amazing thought: "If we could look into the heart of the other person and know the journey of what they have gone through e'd become more tolerant, more kind, more generous and we would care more".

New beginnings

What an exciting day! It's LilaBa's 91st birthday today; I'm so glad I got to wish her and convey my pranams to her. Blessings of the elders are truly inspiring and that is definitely one of the things that keeps me going at life full speed. Also, I finally got to create Kanan Jani Photography page. I had been wanting to create the page since a while and I finally got a chance to. I'm so glad I finally did. And, I'm finally back to blogging after such a long hiatus.

Here's one of my favorite photos taken at one of my favorite locations: Lakeshore Park in Newark, CA.