Until very recently, I thought human life was a sentence. As in a jail time and we have to endure it until the end of the life, whenever that might be. Waiting for the end to arrive while we suffer. We are brought here to go through all of our past and present accounts to pay off as many of the debts as possible. That was the mindset I had. It wasn’t all my life but since my challenging college/university days, that’s what I believed.
Earlier this year, I got a cancer diagnosis and I realized things needed to change in the way my mind worked, in the way I thought. I started to seek all kinds of help from everywhere possible. A few amazing books, more readings, a lot of different types of therapies, some meditation and tons of affirmation cards (more on all those soon) later, I have realized that life is the most beautiful thing ever and I’m truly blessed to have gotten a chance to experience it and to be living it right now.
A meditation session at work yesterday also confirmed the same. The meditation teacher said “Life is not happening at us. Life is happening for us. Life is on our side. It is not a trap. We are not helpless. We are in charge.” His session went on to describe life as our personal movie and we are the star as well as the director of that movie. Despite of all the struggles, conflicts, challenges, and uncertainty it brings, it is our ability to experience all those and feel the emotions and act with our most authentic selves is what makes it a beautiful movie, which would be quite boring otherwise. And that we have complete control over it about how to experience it. It is that movie that brings us opportunities, teachings and lessons that we wouldn’t have gotten if it were only a happy-go-lucky kind of "boring" movie. This philosophy resonates with me so deeply. I’m realizing how wrong I was in thinking about it as a punishment. With the new experiences I have had in last couple of months, I’m experiencing first hand that this life is truly my friend, my companion, a miraculous thing and so full of excitement! I just have to take time to experience it all and see it and feel it myself. I’m truly grateful to be alive!!!